Dear 2012,
Hi, how are you? Nice to meet you. You are so new and fresh and still have the holiday glow about you. I think you are probably a pretty decent sort of year, but I have to be honest. I’m a little nervous about you.
I know you are not 2011, but you look so much alike, and let’s face it, you new years start out all the same. Lots of shiny glitz and noise, promises of new beginnings and wonderful change, only to end up a continuation of what went before. (Don’t argue, that laundry I didn’t do is still in a pile in the corner, and the sweater I’m making, still half done.)You are not so much a new beginning as you are resting point of assessment and course correction. Not so romantic, but true.
I know I shouldn’t bring old baggage into a new relationship, but you see, 2011 was really hard. Dreams ended, relationships went wonky, health was iffy, finances tanked. Course correction is happening but this big old ship is going to take a while to turn around which has you, 2012 still looking a whole lot like 2011.
Yeah, it’s true that, while some relationships went wonky last year, many others were reconnected with and nourished. That was fun and lovely. And sure, I had a big surgery, but I was loved and cared for in surprising ways. Come to think of it, money was scary and nerve racking, but new systems and commitments are making a big difference.
Dreams dieing are always hard and 2011 did in a couple I didn’t even know I had. But you know what 2012? Right at the last moments of 2011 a couple of juicy possibilities opened up, right out of the blue. That was pretty cool.
So, okay, 2011 wasn’t all bad, in fact there was some pretty awesome moments, so your resemblance, 2012, to last year might be all right.
Maybe, just maybe New Year, we can create an alliance, a powerful relationship of hope, trust, honesty and courage. That would be pretty cool don’t you think? I think it would be fun to stretch more, love more freely, bring the mysteries out in the open.
I don’t what to put too much pressure on you or anything, but I think we can do this thing up right.
What do you think? I’m up for it!
I feel much better having this little chat before things get too hot and heavy between us.
I think I might be falling for you 2012.
xo,
Sandi
PS, I don’t believe all that Mayan calender stuff about you, don’t worry. I’m in it for the long haul.
