I have had a lump in my throat and tightness in my chest the past few days, feeling like there is a really big cry waiting to happen but is stuck. Trapped in layers of tiny distraction and rambling busyness, perhaps held in place by fear and anxiety of what the really big cry means.
And yet, bits of this cry are seeping out in tiny moments, little moments of small consequence. I am teary, feeling tender, and the critical, judging part of me wants to labeled it “overly sensitive.” This is my personal red flag to look deeper. When ever I criticize my feelings as “overly sensitive” I know something important is going on that needs care, attention and acceptance.
So I follow the tears back to their source, back into the tiny, little moments, seemingly inconsequential.
– Making pie crust and remembering my grandmother.
– Marathon watching of Dr. Who, again.
– Seeing light though fall leaves.
– The house across the street aglow in the dark with Christmas lights.
– Laughing with my neighbor.
– Knitting on the couch with a cup of tea.
When I look into these moments I see that the lump and tightness are not some big scary thing I don’t want to deal with that got locked in my chest and throat.
It is Wonder.
Tiny, shimmering moments of Wonder making their way up through the hardened strata of ordinary life, past overly long to do lists, ignoring deadlines and obligations. Wonder finding its way out through my tears like water finding its way up out of the earth and flowing where needed.
The tears are moments of softening into moments too large to fit into the box my mind gives them. The tenderness is the releasing of the shell I put around myself. The lump in my throat and tightness in my chest are me bracing against a moment I don’t yet understand.
Wonder expands me so I can take it in. The love, adventure, beauty, friendship, peace my mind wont let fit into the “little moments of small consequence.” Wonder reveals the magic always here yet rarely seen, even more rarely felt.
Wonder is the portal to the More we crave at the root of our being. It is how we can see the sacred, the transcendent, the enchantment of life.
It is the joyful path to the more of You.
Risk the big ugly cry, follow the unexpected tears, open to the tiny moments. Begin to feel into, soften into, the always present Wonder of your life.
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Your life has more magic than you know. Wonder is how you find it.